Cieran

Sending out a signal to the KNOWN UNIVERSE!

2008-09-14T07:10:09Z

Hrm...been awhile since "I" posted anything on here. I know Jen likes to from time to time, but now it's my turn. Where to start: baby being born next month. Got some things for him when he finally arrives. We're leaning towards Sam as a name, but that could change. Work being a pain in the ass in thw worst way, so hoping to find something else in the meantime that wouldn't change its policies towards its employees every 2 days. X_x; Still gaming on Xbox Live to relieve stress. Can't wait for Gears 2 to show up, since the first game online is destabilizing badly. Glitches are more rampant than ever. Been playing Tiger Woods 09 as well. If any of you got games on Xbox Live, just leave a message. XD Don't know who I'll vote for come November. I have an idea, but my vote will go beyond gender and race. Got Jen liking more asian food, namely Halo Halo(a type of fruit cocktail for those that don't know ^_^). Watched OSU get spanked by USC 35-3. Also found out Notre Dame won against Michigan. Michigan will have such a tough season this year, but then again...the Big Ten is pretty bad this year but not as bad as the ACC. Hope everyone has a great weekend!

cieran @ 2008-05-31T22:30:00

2008-06-01T02:32:36Z

Because Bry never posts here, but I figure at least one or two of his friends who can't find him for whatever reason still reads this, we have BIG SCARY NEWS.

The dork... I mean... guy who owns this LJ is... HAVING A BABY. Yes, he is. Not me. Even though I'm the girl around here. But that's okay, he doesn't mind. :)

It's a boy, due in October. Any names? ;P

cieran @ 2007-04-22T14:45:00

2007-04-22T18:45:53Z

Your results:
You are Venom

Venom		73%
Magneto		70%
Mr. Freeze		68%
The Joker		67%
Two-Face		65%
Apocalypse		61%
Dr. Doom		57%
Mystique		57%
Riddler		53%
Green Goblin		53%
Dark Phoenix		48%
Lex Luthor		47%
Juggernaut		41%
Catwoman		40%
Poison Ivy		39%
Kingpin		36%

Strength, disguise and adrenaline are your greatest weapons.

Click here to take the Supervillain Personality Quiz

cieran @ 2007-02-10T10:15:00

2007-02-10T15:16:43Z

What American accent do you have? Your Result: Philadelphia Your accent is as Philadelphian as a cheesesteak! If you're not from Philadelphia, then you're from someplace near there like south Jersey, Baltimore, or Wilmington. if you've ever journeyed to some far off place where people don't know that Philly has an accent, someone may have thought you talked a little weird even though they didn't have a clue what accent it was they heard.
The Midland
The South
The Inland North
The Northeast
Boston
The West
North Central
What American accent do you have? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

Oh shit, son...I'm from Philly, dawg! Cheesesteaks, Sixers, and Eagles...YYYYYYEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAA-UUUUUUUUUHHHHHHHH!!! I guess people from NY and Philly sound pretty much the same(or I'm just different XD). Oh well, least the sports rivalries still own...wait...NY and Philly have winning teams at the same time now?!?! >_>;

Can you smell it? I can smell it....smells like....Gears of War....

2007-02-01T18:14:53Z

After a long hiatus, I'm back. Had a rather turbulent several weeks, but things have gotten better in an odd way. Went from trying to get my sister a DS to talking to friends from high school that i havent gotten a chance to speak to in ages, to trying to get new comps(and failing), to....Bell offering 360's through their promotion on a pay-per-month plan? I should I should've taken it....wait...i did. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAA!!!!!!!!! Jen helped me, she's great *was forced to say that after enduring much heartache after the possibility of not getting a 360* >_>

Got Mario Kart DS now and waiting for some people to get the game or get their WiFi working right so we can game. Today, I'll be trading in some games to get Gears of War or Perfect Dark Zero. With the 3 free months of Xbox Live Gold along with the system....I'll be gone for a reeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaalllly long time as I wage war on the Locust. Surrender is NOT an option! GUAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAAAA!!!!

Hrm? *gets told that he has a gift over lj* A bunch of roses? Eh? Which one of you gave them to me? *eyes suspiciously* Thanks for the gift, but...least tell me who ye be next time ^_^;

Anyway....back to waiting "patiently" for the 360 to arrive.... >_>;

Ti's the Season....to get druuuuuuuuunk! Falalala la la la laaaaa!

2006-12-25T14:04:28Z

MEEEEEEEEEEEEEERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

CHHHHHHHHHHHHHHRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRIIIIIIIIISSSSSSSSSSTTTTTTTTMMMMMMMAAAAAAAAAASSSSSSSSSSSSSSS! =D

Dun dun duuuuuuuun.....Story time!

2006-12-25T01:51:26Z

Been meaning to work on a story regarding one of Jen's ideas, but was having a tough time trying to end it. I worked backwards this time, knowing that if i have a suitable finish to the story, that everything else will fall into place pretty much fine. It's about a bounty hunter named Samosa(yes...jamaican beef patty...and there's a reason for it which will be explained later). This is supposed to be what happens when he finally catches up to the person he was chasing(lot of narrow escapes, death and destruction):

Samosa limped his way over to his target, who was lying on the floor half dazed in the aftermath of the fight. He reached behind his back and underneath his coat, pulling out a restraining device and setting it on the ground. It emitted a biomagnetic field that affected the iron compounds in a person's body, rendering them unable to move, or be able to move with great difficulty. After getting his bounty into its intended position, and standing just far enough so the field didnt reach him, Samosa pressed the button on his remote transmitter...

"Wakey, wakey...", the distant voice ordered. The detainee groaned as he tried in vain to block out the pain from his throbbing head and ears. "Wakey, wakey..." the voice, now seemingly edging closer and becoming clearer ordered again. He thought he had his eyes opened, but for some reason couldn't see anything. For several minutes, his vision didn't appear until at last, he could make out a figure relatively close to his position. He tried to move his jaw and to his horror, failed. Regaining more of his senses, the detainee found out his mouth was opened with something blocking the opening. His sounds were muffled as he tried to speak. "Ah, alive enough to speak, eh? You took me for quite a trip trying to track you down, but now it's over" the man admitted. After another failed attempted to speak, the man continued, "Sorry, but you won't be able to speak....you see...I've put a grenade in your mouth." The detainee's eyes bulged with terror and struggled, but to no avail. "Almost forgot to tell you, you're lying in close proximity to a biomagnetic emitter." the man looked closely at his prisoner, whom seemed to stop breathing for a few seconds, "Don't know what that is, do you? All you need to know is...it's the reason why you're having such a hard time trying to move. Think of it as being sick to the point you couldn't get out of bed even if it was absolutely necessary. You get the picture." The Hunter leaned over and turned a small knob, giving life to the once silent grenade. It beeped rythmically giving the false sense of pleasure as the man stood up and grinned once then arched a balled fist into the prisoner's face once before slowly walking away in practiced synchronization with his final words, "that grenade doesn't explode like a normal one, so don't worry...yet. This particular grenade releases an acid that will burn through flesh and bone in a matter of seconds.." The Hunter heard the panicked sounds of his prisoner with a now broken nose as he struggled both to breathe and to try and remove the grenade. Continuing while the beeping of the grenade quickened, the Hunter questioned, "I wonder what would happen: would you suffocate from the blood in your nasal passage blocking your air...or will your soul remember your final seconds of life as the acid frees you from this existence?" The prisoner's muffled screams were becoming louder and his body convulsed as it tried to breathe and free itself from its deathtrap. The Hunter kept walking, almost talking to himself as the shrill of the alarm on the grenade and the screams of the prisoner became one, "You never seemed to want to know my name...it's Samosa. Take it with you to your next state of being." The following second, all sound in the room faded, except for the footsteps of Samosa and the bubbling acidic mass covering the surprisingly undamaged floor...

Sure it blows..but what can you do with a half shut down brain? >_>;;;

NBA Brawl Redux!

2006-12-17T08:21:25Z

Just when the NBA thought its image was improving after what happened 2 years ago in Detroit between the Pistons and Indiana Pacers where a massive brawls spilled into the seats....another brawl happened! THIS time between the NY Knicks and Denver Nuggets at basketball's most famous arena, Madison Square Garden. Knicks were getting blown out 119-100 with about a minute remaining, but instead of taking out the starters, Denver kept them in. Were they running up the score? Probably. Were they embarassing the Knicks with poor sportmanship? Likely. Did it have something to do with Isaiah Thomas firing Larry Brown last year when he was coach of the Knicks and that current Denver coach George Karl is a close friend of Brown's? Of course. Fact is...as if things couldn't get any worse for the Knicks. They have the highest payroll in the league, very talented players whom cant find any chemistry whatsoever with one another since half the team has a bunch of egos. The latest players, like Balkman and Lee, are pretty damn good, considering no one else picked up on them. The problem, however....are the "stars" of the team: Starbury, Franchise, and Crawdad. (Stephon Marbury, Steve Francis, and Jamal Crawford for those that don't know) Not to mention the GM now turned coach, Thomas. As much good as he's done for the Knicks, he's probably done an equally bad job(maybe twice as bad). Couple that with how Dolan doesn't fucking care about the Knicks, its once proud history, or its once proud fanbase. These aren't the NY Knicks...even when the previous Knicks teams that had losing seasons, they always had dignity, class, and respect for the fans. Guys like Ewing, Starks, Oakley, Mason, Harper, Houston, Reed, Fraizer, Ward(minus that one anti Semetic remark people were pissed with him for), Debuecher(i think that's the spelling...)The owner and coaches tried their hardest to make a winning team, and were smart in how they did it. This whole organization needs a fire sale and fast. Keep like Balkman, Lee, and Curry..and Malik Rose, since he's a great player whom isn't used often. Francis, Marbury, Crawford...hell, even Nate Robinson. They all need to go. If Thomas' future with the Knicks wasn't decided before..it has been now. I keep telling people...there has to be some rapper, or casino mogul that wants to buy the team and MAKE it something. Someone get 50 Cent or LL Cool J....or try to get the Maloofs to own 2 teams. Sad fact is....the Knicks are stuck like this for another 5 years, at least.

Movies about games....!

2006-11-21T20:44:51Z

Today, the Halo movie Peter Jackson was supposed to take part in, was cancelled since Universal nor Fox wanted it. Universal probably because of what happened with Doom, Fox...well..dunno what Fox's excuse was. They like putting out crap as of late. I can just HEAR the groans of hardcore Halo fans around. True, I like Halo. True, I like to read the books. True, it would be nice to see a movie about it...if it was done right(only want a movie of the first Halo book, "Fall of Reach"). Otherwise, I wouldn't lose sleep over it. movie studios keep fucking up the game to movie adaptations...why? To attract the casual movie goer, while at the same time alienating the core group the got that particular game franchise to where it was. Silent Hill was pretty damn close to being what gamers wanted, but something about the movie didnt quite pull me in. Doom was actually pretty decent, considering there's like...little to no dialogue at all in all of Doom, and it's usually just the one marine killing everything. What killed THAT movie...was its atmosphere...genetically altered humanoids that transfer over to humans in a freak experiment? While I wouldnt gripe about the concept if it were for another movie or game entirely.....Doom was 3 things: lots of guns, ugly monsters, and the fact it was Man vs Hell. The first two were done...but the final part was changed. Why? SO religious groups wouldnt be up in arms trying to sue Universal or id software. Way to go, assminers. Then there were the Resident Evil movies which were....alright in their own way. The 2nd definitely felt more RE than the first, but it still seemed like some B rated movies. I won't bitch about the director doing the best he could with what he had. I AM bitching about how much hype the movies got, such as the great, "It'll revolutionize horror flicks!" and other pieces of masterpiece toilet nuggets. Let's not forget the two Tomb Raider movies. The first one actually did well. The second....*clears throat before laughing*. I discount the FF7 Advent Children movie since it wasnt released in theaters...however if it WAS....holy shit would it have made a bunch of money. They definitely redeemed themselves after the horror that was FF: Spirits Within. Take a look at comics to movie adaptations....lately they've been very successful(such as Spider-Man) with few missteps(like the Hulk or Fantastic Four movies). Before, they were horrible til the past 5 years or so. Why? The effort. Marvel actually went out of their way to make the movies every bit as engaging as the comics(especially since new comic lines of said superheroes were coming out). So, why can't the same be done for video game to movie adaptations? Companies like Capcom and Konami certainly have the money to put forth the effort. So, why are they holding back?

Hold on now...it goes both ways, movies to games havent really fared well either(with the lone exception being Chronicles of Riddick: Escape from Butcher Bay and maybe Scarface). It's something that boggles the mind! Anyone thoughts on all of this? And what was the best game-to-movie adaptation you've seen to date? =)

Eep eep eeeep eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep!

2006-09-06T23:06:37Z

Apparently a few people have "nudged" me through email to update on here...so...erm..I'll try. =)

Going to be going on a trip next week or something like that up north, forget where. Also getting ready to undertake some new training at the office so I can get all...multi-talented and such. On what, I'm still not 100% sure on, but shouldn't been too hard. Hey, if it's easy and gets me more money, who am I to complain? X_x Erm, been getting strange calls and IMs recently. People think this house belongs to some asian person(though I am part asian... >_>), some Indian guy....or some guy named Matt. That last part happened when some girl messaged me while I was in StarCraft asking if I still liked some girl named Kristine. lol. I didnt see her the first time since I had my away message on, but I think a day or two later I came across her again and she thought I was some guy named Matt. X_x; Hooray for wrong people! <_<;

Hrm...what else....want to kill the cats(the kitten more so than the big one). They are Crap Machine and Piss Machine. Also been keeping in touch with some of my friends from high school. Apparently one of them is now a teacher at the high school I went too. Speaking of high school, they sent me a job offer to work there to run some fundraising things. If I was still in NY, I probably would take it...those events are fun. =D MS has become more hacker-filled than I feared, so leveling my character on there will be a nightmare. I'm not sure if I'll stay on there as much as I want to, who knows. Least I'm getting better on SC. Trying out a new strategy that seems to be working. Pretty hard to try to add things to how you've played up until now...only to almost completely trash it and start over. Haven't gone back to GW since the guild pretty much died or went to Never Winter Nights. GW was good in its own way...but you couldn't solo on there for shit. Hiring NPCs to be your teammates is...not a fun experience. Might get the NWN pack this week or something if it's super cheap. Otherwise I'll just save money for whatever. Noticed a few people are living/will be living around here. I dunno..maybe I'll hang out with them. Maybe I'll end up killing them. j/k

Well...almost the 5th anniversary of perhaps the worst day in NYC history, and there's still a big firestorm swirling around it if not bigger than in previous years. This one author has been going on show after show and badmouthing pretty much everyone affected by the tragedy. She says she has a point, but the point isn't quite...matching up to what she's actually saying. I guess it's the harshness and lack of compassion for seemingly everything and everyone involved that's got her confused as to why she's being "attacked". Every objective reporter she's come across(so few of them out there...) seemed like they wanted to hit her for talking through both sides of her mouth. Meh....with elections in the States going on...not sure I'll be comfortable with any combination of possible outcomes. Both of the main parties are using Iraq and 9/11 to controll Congress though both have pretty much failed the public for years. What ever happened to the different Independent parties(not racists running for president) that actually HAD power to challenge for the White House instead of just...showing up? Doesn't help the fact that the UN is sitting on its ass about everything and still pushing the US to take action. Then people wonder why the US is in almost every world affair out there. Then of course, the lingering problems with Muslims...man...what the hell is wrong with the world? Not exactly sure who to root for, or if I even should root for anyone. I don't think there's anyone out there in each level of government that can really do something or be heard...that are connected to the people instead of their party. Bah, moving on.

There's still a mess regarding the new arena being built in Brooklyn for the NJ(soon to be Brooklyn) Nets. A bunch of folks are crying that the arena, shops, office and residential buildings that are being planned, don't fit in with the "aura" of Brooklyn. Ok, let's get one thing straight. I've been to Brooklyn a number of times and it's always "when are things going to get better?" Granted, every time Brooklyn had improved, it was just sold to whoever wanted to pay the most. Now you have a developer that wants to improve the area, is more than willing to find alternatives to improve the area without crushing the people that call it home and is using railyards that haven't been used in god knows how long. Toss that in with the Freedom Tower(big mistake I think still) in Manhattan and the new Yankee Stadium and its public parks being built in the Bronx, NYC is trying really hard to get...I dunno how to say it...its spirit back? Sounds about right. Things are slowly improving...but there are those that are standing in the way. I'm sure they have their reasons, but so far they're not saying what they are, only "No! it's wrong!". The arena and stadium plans are actually approved by most people, but it'll be a long fight through the courts. The Freedom Tower is....another matter....not sure if that thing will ever be built.

Being summoned to SC, so I'll be off now. Be good everyone! =D

From the Far Reaches of Space....!

2006-06-07T12:10:24Z

Been trying to keep this new apartment in order....it's harder..yet...easier than the last place. Had some trouble with the oven...part of it doesn't work. It has two heating coils, one from the top(to act more like a broiler) and one at the bottom(conventional oven). The bottom one didnt work that well...so I had to switch the settings to use the top coil. It's better now. ^_^ Made some spicy lemon chicken and vegetables....one pan that was closer to the coil(uncovered the chicken at this point to get some color on the meat) and kinda charred parts of the outside. The funny part was....tasted a lot better. O_O; Was going to do the same thing to the other pan of chicken...started to..but was falling asleep at that point and didnt want to burn down the house. =)

Some stuff happening on here...but I'm not that worried about it. Peopls can act like fools and stalkers if they want to, could care less right now. Just waiting to see if some comments continue before I say anything. Got some friends that are hooking up with one another. One pair seems promising...another pair seems destined for disaster, but have seen weirder things happen.

It's my birthday today..hooray! Jen was sad she really couldnt get me anything. I said it was fine...this happens more often than not with my b-day. The day it's on seems to run just before...or after an event of great monetary need. Doesn't phase me anymore. As I got older, started to understand more. =) I guess I've understood...just....didnt accept it so much? That sounds about right. Jen got me a small orange kitty yesterday as another gift. She's so cute. ^_^ I have yet to give her a name, though. Wondering what I should call her. I was jokingly tossing out names like "Chiceken Wing", "Tang", amd "Chickang". Might just name her Ginger like Jen proposed because of her color. Now for her to get along with Roz, the much older cat in the house. XD Jen also wanted to take home one of the orange cat's siblings, one other that was orange too out of the rest of the group, so she wouldnt be lonely. Thought about it...and even with Roz here...she still might be lonely. But a house with 3 cats? O_o Eh...i dunno...about willing to give this a shot and see what happens.

Well...off to get some leftovers and read a book...or watch the FF7 movie...again.

>_>

<_< It's good, damnit! =D

Bleh....Mysterious injury

2006-05-24T09:45:46Z

My left wrist and elbow are all jacked up...my wrist more so than my elbow. Apparently i was sleeping ackwardly and got it caught in an odd position. Had it wrapped up after Jen massaged it for a while. I was doing alright...then later on when i had to cook...i was handling some stuff and my wrist basically gave out. Doesnt feel broken...but then again..never had a broken bone....that I know of. Also, most people I've talked to said if they did break something...if it wasnt a nasty compound fracture...then the simple fracture felt more like a bad sprain. I just hope I have a bad sprain and nothing else. I have enough injuries as is...dont need any more. Couldnt really play any of the games I wanted to exceot StarCraft since I don't need to use my left hand as much.(unless i was one of the korean gamers...then...that'd be a different story). I'll see how it feels tomorrow...probably put some ice on it or something. Took some pain meds and hopefully will feel better. =)

Oh yeah..in regards with my friend's phone number being passed around on an online game. Apparently there's not much weight behind it since she wouldn't give me the proof that I asked for. Everything she was saying was speculation...and the things she was saying weren't holding up. So...whatever. Still trying to figure out who left her phone number on my journal when anonymous gifts were being given to me. Maybe it was her...maybe it wasn't. No idea. I guess that's one mystery I'll never solve.

Fun stuff... =/

2006-05-10T23:55:34Z

Wellll....today was going ok(and recently was going good)....til a crisis crashed into my lap today. Apparently a friend of mine was harassed by people off of a game in which a possibly hacked account of mine was used and spammed the friend's phone number through the server. Looking into it and it's not looking good. Wondering why they would choose her...but then again...I might have gotten another keylogger on this comp. I hope not. But it's possible. Been sent to sites when trying to delete certain emails during one time. I wouldnt look at them...but I would still get sent. O_o Anyone else have this problem? I've run a bunch of scans, but they're negative. But that doesn't quite make me feel better. Trying to get to the bottom of this mess. Havent had a problem with email since...but..I dunno. My friend was already twitchy before this happened and now this probably gave her the ammunition needed to go off on a super rampage that would be very ugly for me. Legal reprucussions? Doubtful, but never know with this girl. Guess I'm freaking out more over the fact that Jen doesnt like this friend and vice versa and this could easily have been seen as Jen doing something she shouldnt have. Jen's innocent in the matter since I've extensively checked. But I don't think my friend would ever believe that since it was an account Jen and I shared, though sparingly...and not recently. And I can guess of maybe two other people that COULD try this...but they don't seem to fit. But then again...they could. Hooray for me... =/

Meh...

2006-05-04T06:17:08Z

Today was a rather horrid day...was ill..fought with the cat...the phone didnt ring, or if it did..was for a wrong number X_x. My cellphone was somehow put on its secruity mode...which I never did. Finally got it to work..but not til much much later. Couldnt call anyone I wanted to. Sent them text messages instead...not sure if anyone got them. If you did...teeeeeeelllllllllllll me, please? Was testing something out. Now...gotta clean up the house for some relatives to show up..fun times. X_x Anyway...send me more email! or look me up on AIM or MSN...or yahoo...something. =P If you wanna find me..just ask so I can give you a way to contact me. Just wanna bug people from time to time. Huzzah!

Byyyyyyyeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Edit: Now the friend doesn't trust me and claims to never have tried to get in touch with me again through lj...so....things just keep adding up with no amount of answers to satisfy everything. That's ok. Friend is so bent on blaming Usa and some other guy(which i can't completely disprove) over this. So..whatever. Lost a friend...or was she ever one? I dunno. Hope whoever did it is realllly happy.

O_O;

2006-04-29T00:41:45Z

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!! One of my gifts have gone missing. O_O; I knew i was having problems with lj before..but didnt think anything of it til someone told me. X_x; Man...I'm not having any luck with computers or anything today....well..least I got my new books to add to my increasing library. =D I soubt I'll get to read too much about it since I'm really feeling ill at the moment. Someone at a local arcade was wearing something that basically made me ill. Couldnt really breathe or anything since my face and lungs felt like they were on fire. =( I'm alright now that I've gotten more fresh air into my system...just...weird...I rarely get violent reactions like that...

Oh yeah...email me people! I want more emails! I usually get lj comments and such..but not much in terms of one on one emails...SEND ME SOME! I love j00 long time!

cieran @ 2006-04-28T08:32:00

2006-04-28T12:36:52Z

Erm..hello anonymous person(or people!) that's been trying to contact me. *waves* If i know you, I have no way of contacting you. Just finished clearing out a bunch of email addys and such and I dont have a phone number to call ye if I indeed know you THAT well(and if that's the case...I've lost too many phone numbers to my crapass cell... ;_;) Pleeaaaaaaaasssseeee email me at hariel19@yahoo.com or my Anubis19@gmail.com ? Dunno how else to contact you. Also wondering if you're the same person tha tried to prank me over AIM a few minutes ago..but I doubt it. XD Anyhoo....Thanks for the gift(s) again! =D

My Silence has been BROKEN! AHAHAHAHAAA!!!!!!

2006-04-26T22:23:26Z

Been away for a reeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaalllllllllllllyyyy long time. Been playing games or reading books almost exclusively. Anything to do with lj is most likely linked to the communities associated with the various games I play. =) I've gotten a gift on here! Woot! Thanks to whomever sent it. Haven't had a chance to see if the gift is clickable to see if there's a message attached to it or not. Also..thanks to whoever keeps paying for my lj. O_o; I kinda feel bad since I don't really use my lj outside of the games...but then again...the more space for more userpics is pretty nice. ^_^ Back to my reading of one of several books I hope to have in my mini library soon. =)

oooooo

2006-04-12T01:09:11Z

introducing...

SEXUAL PLATYPUS!

YAAAAAAAAY SEXUAL PLATYPUS!

the BEFORE picture... how BORING!

-pageless :D

Cuz I'm the Juggernaut, BIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIITCH!

2006-03-11T07:50:24Z

Was looking on Youtube.com and ran a search for matches involving Bret "Hitman" Hart, and SOMEHOW came across a video that had very little to do with the search. Out of like....30 minutes, only 5 seconds of it had to do with the search..but...it qualified as part of the search.

Be warned....it'll blow your mind. Especially if you like the old X-Men cartoon from the early 90's that aired on Fox. =D

http://youtube.com/watch?v=k4qdX6_9XgI&search=Bret%20Hart

Sounds like something a friend and I would do if we had enough time to act like morons, lol.

Thanks! =)

2006-03-10T16:41:20Z

Just realized that my lj has been paid for...and it wasn't by me. I asked Jen if she did it and she said no. So...to the mystery person(sorry, I accidentally deleted the email that said I had a paid lj, thinking it was just a comment email -_-) Thank you. =D Didn't want to keep using this before I got a chance to thank you. ^_^

Woooooooooooooooooooooooo

2006-01-20T14:43:41Z

Just showing off the new icon Jen made for me of my character on MapleStory(game I've been playing a lot since I cant really play StarCraft with the DSL router being a bum). Gonna TRY and start drawing the character..but didnt have a clue how to draw him til i saw a sketch Jen did of him. I really like it...just need to fix the hat...make it bigger or something. XD Add a thing here and there..but she had him pretty much dead on. ^_^

A Change of Pace is Appreciated...

2006-01-15T11:06:22Z

Couldn't sleep from thinking too much(attached to the last two entries) and decided to try and find something else to consider. Ended up stumbling on an old idea before I moved out with Jen. It was a paper on the theory of telepathy...how it functions, its possible origins and future, and anything else that could be linked to it. I know what you'll say, "What about telekinesis?" I'll lump it in together since I believe they're connected. Not sure what brought it up...movies....comics....something. Kyle and I talked about it for a bit a while ago and pretty much dared one another to at least attempt to create our own theories regarding telepathy. I used to have a paper I was doing a rough outline of on the subject then was somehow lost when I moved. I have to start all over again.

As always, any suggestions you guys have will be appreciated. Don't HAVE to participate in this venture, but I like hearing what people think on certain issues that are so open and undefined. Give me YOUR theory about telepathy. How do you think it works?

And so the war of words continues....

2006-01-15T08:47:12Z

More things said....more things heard...more things felt...

Why should I even bother listening to those that have lied to me and treated me like garbage for so long? Why should I give them the time of day, the privilege of attention, the regret of knowing better? Why do I feel the desire to think "they're better than this, really" and then still be hurt when my guess of failure is confirmed? Maybe I just cant believe I let some people that close to me and they're also some of the most screwed up individuals I've ever met. Usually I just turn away people that look like they'll be huge problems....I thought I figured that out a long time ago. Nowadays I can see the trouble coming, know where it's coming from....try to turn away, only for my damned soul to say "they can always change". That notion has made me lose quite a bit of sanity, sleep, and in some cases, blood, over the years. No, I never did cutting or anything....just how I would relieve stress would be running through paths in parks with sometimes sharp branches(they need to trim those things...) or just idly banging my fist against a wall in thought only to realize I've done it too hard. I've responded to people...some of them I shouldn't, but I do...and just think, "Wow, that person has some cajones to say such a thing, feel no pity, and keep going." Some responses I get back I know are full of shit...especially if how the person that has acted towards me up to the comment suddenly changed overnight. Can't erase years of bullshit with empty apologies that came out after every incident only to worsen later. After a while you can feel the forced words, the sarcasm, the false sense of hope just to shut a person up. I'm trying very hard to ignore certain people, only to realize they'll perhaps always be closer than I want them to be, despite objections from those close to me.

I've been asked several times to give people up and I have...almost everytime. "I'll give this person up" or "I'll listen if" you gave up that friend" Did that so many times only to be in the same problem, same situation, later. When I got tired of banishing friends(that needed to be banished)....I would compromise too often and ask for the same in return.....only to be deny the very thing I agreed to do. "I can't do it....they're too important" usually is the reply I get. No matter how bad their friends trashed them and stepped on them and always hoped they would be wrapped around their finger, I would help....only to be trashed and stepped on myself. Goody. Then when I burst a blood vessel, I'm abandoned and looked at like some psycho. Assholes and bitches stick together, I guess.

This post doesn't make sense to normal people...but then again, it'd take a screwed up person to understand the logic. Hell...gradually I was turned to that irrational logic. Coming apart at the seams from trying to understand some things and letting go of others and I haven't been left unscathed. I bear a lot of emotional scars some of my closest friends will never know. Sure I have physical scars too, but mostly from being a clutz(i.e, cooking).

Some have a screwed up sense of how a friendship with me works. It would be "Bry won't leave, he'll always be there.....help me should I need him" and "I got him, as long as Bry is there, I can fuck up all I want then cry later". To some....I shall always be there should they need me....but to the others that have wasted opportunity after opportunity...it's coming to an end..oh it will. You might not like the results....hell you might make a mistake and die from your stupidity. I would think, "I can help that person" like some guardian angel. Even angels at some point must rethink their reason for doing what they do. Is it worth it....do it look like it's truly working. Are you really reaching them?

I've come a long way......fallen a long way.....and climbed back a long way. Things must change and some parts of me has. Kind of scared if i change too much I might be an emotional mess 24/7 or not care enough to be affected. I'm not talking about those "cross me once, it's over" crap...I'm talking years of fighting and insignificant progess...progress slowed to a halt because the opposing party cant give up their own reality to try and make something of themselves so those around them dont see them as lost causes. I guess i keep trying on some level because I CAN'T accept the fact some of those I wish I could really help are too far gone. That everytime I reach my out, they'll tear the flesh from the back of my hand. A very hard lesson I'm having real trouble accepting....not sure if I'll ever truly accept it....but I have to. Some people.....just aren't worth the pain I put myself and those around me through.

Well....AIn't This a Bitch.....

2006-01-12T11:10:17Z

Going to say this once....and only once:

Leave me the fuck alone. You know who you are and know only parts of a situation. Complain all you want, but until you come up with actual GOOD ideas, don't even DARE think you have a rough sketch of what's going on. I know you people hear one side of the story and I also seen what was written and what's been left out. Been up for most of the night after passing out from trying to relieve other forms of stress. Tonight was the last straw after someone messaged me with their "two cents" and didnt even bother to stick around after I got up to roam around. How many of you know about moving to another country? How many of you ever done what I'm ATTEMPTING to do? Not your grandparents, not your parents....just you. What's that? Best guess? Never done this before? Then shut it. Literally biting my tongue til it bleeds from not blowing up on anyone. "I" am doing the best I can, but most of the problem is time. Whether there's too much of it or not enough.

And to a certain someone....you could've easily been in my current situation, many times.

But you failed since you're a worthless piece of shit that doesn't want to try. Look where I came from...look what I accomplished compared to you. Don't ever make the mistake that you have a right to talk down to me. If you were respectable a damn day in your life instead of constantly turning tail and hiding under your bed, then I might not be so upset with the audacity of your comment tonight and would talk to you. You never tried to be my friend without trying to blindside me at the same time. Until you become a man....a person, a human being....anything that doesnt resemble a piece of grass stuck between the cheeks of a hippo's ass..don't step to me. You couldn't even handle what was given to you time after time..couldnt handle the problems that came along with it. You know the problems I'm talking about. I'm actually doing my best to face them while you're still at home, as always, only talking shit from the shadows. I'll give you credit...you actually "talked" to me for once instead of running around. If you want to call that 3 second message and exit "talking."

And before I snap, crackle, and pop...i'm going to find something constructive to do.

On second thought....I think my patience has run out...

with everyone.

Working on stuff...

2005-05-18T05:45:36Z

Been working on so many things at once, I think I've spread myself way too thin....Been working on several stories, drawings, and other ideas. Not to mention playing games....Plus Jen has an idea for a fake anime involving her characters and maybe my own. I dunno...maybe I'll play along...sounds promising....but if it becomes serious, I dont think I'd have what it took to continue it...Jen has the ideas and the direction....KC has the drawing skills....Andy i have yet to find out much of.....but when it comes to me....I'm more of a supporting cast member that does guest appearances on shows for certain times, not a run through. XD I kinda hope it does take off....but i dont wanna make a fool out of myself either. I'll start writing an "episode" tonight...maybe I'll be finished...maybe not.

Waiting for the premiere of Star Wars Episode III....the ONLY SW film i wanted to see outside the first trilogy....and something tells me Lucas will bomb the film despite all the reasons and talent that it SHOULDNT bomb... I hope the actors can carry the film....too much talent and hope to be wasted because a director couldnt write for CRAP! Might go the mall tomorrow to get the Episode III game and/or Anakin's color-changing lightsaber....OR/and Darth Vader voice changing helmet =3 I rock.

What else...oh yeah...been working on learning French(for Jen and immigration), Spanish(since i started that in school instead of French), and Tagalog(because it's the language of my mother's side of the family ^_^)...so yeah..been on a tear as of late for what I've been up to....I will right more...but I just finished cleaning the kitchen and now sneezin' my head off. Later! *waves*